Thursday, October 13, 2005

Natural Predator

A woman may try to hide from the devastations of her life, but the bleeding, the loss of life’s energy, will continue until she recognizes the predator for what it is and contains it.

When women open the doors of their own lives and survey the carnage there in those out-of-the-way places, they most often find they have been allowing assassinations of their most crucial drams, goals, and hopes. They find lifeless thoughts and feelings and desires: ones, which were once graceful and promising but now, are drained of blood. Whether these hopes and dreams be about desire for relationship, desire for an accomplishment, a success, or a work of art, when such a gruesome discovery is made in one’s psyche, we can be sure the natural predator, also often symbolized in dreams as the animal groom, has been at work methodically destroying a woman’s most cherished desires, concerns, and aspirations.

In fairy tales, the animal groom character is a common motif that is understood to represent a malevolent thing disguised as a benevolent thing.

When a woman is attempting to avoid the facts of her own devastations, her night dreams are likely to shout warnings to hr, warnings and exhortations to wake up! Or get help! Or flee! Or go for the kill!

This not seeing, not understanding, not perceiving that our internal desires are not concomitant with our external actions, this is the spoor left behind by the animal groom. The presence of this factor in the psyche accounts for why women who say they wish to have a relationship instead do all they can to sabotage a loving one. This is how women who set goals to be here, there, or wherever by such and such time never even begin the first leg of the journey, or abandon it at the first hardship. This is how all the procrastinations, which give, rise to self-hatred, all the shame feelings that are pushed down and away to fester, all the new beginnings, which are solely needed, and all the long-overdue endings are not met. Wherever the predator lurks and works, everything is derailed, demolished, and decapitated.

So then comes the next step, even more difficult yet, and that is to be able to stand what one sees, all one’s self-destruction and deadness.

pgs. 54-56 paperback

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